it's damned if you don't, it's damned if you do.

im fine in the ditch. give me a glass of orange juice and some napalm and i'm happy.
.
hello.
im just gonna go outside for a bit.
schmoke & a pancake. you know.
might take a few steps away from the house.
that'll be easier than i originally thought.
then i'll walk down the street.
that too will be easy enough.
then, i'll take the bus. 219. slowslow.
im in town.
then i'll take the boat. floatfloat.
walk off in denmark. hi denmark.
then i'll be on the train. zoomzoom.
oh.
i guess i'm at the airport.
i'll cling onto the wheels as it takes off. then i'll jump.
but i'll never hit the ground. ever.
cause i left it all behind and now i wont ever go back.
.
kelly. where're you going.
- out.
whore.

yeah.
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Sew your fortunes on a string
Blue smoke will take
A very violent flight
And you will be changed
And everything
And you will be in a very sad sad zoo.

I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see you
How selfish of you to believe in the meaning of all the bad dreaming
Metal heart you're not hiding
Metal heart you're not worth a thing.

och du lärde mig att fullständigt försvinna.
i know where it'll end up. the white glowing white.
the dark sucking all the air out. the lights dancing everywhere.
and i wont feel my feet touching the floor, and i wont feel the situation,
as it really is. if i would, i'd want to puke all that idiocy out of myself.
faces smiling and laughing and yelling will spin around, and flash by. to disappear.
and i'll scream, the loudest, it'll freeze their bones, and blow the skin off their flesh,
and they'll keep dancing, but i'm standing upside down, breaking my neck, to throw
myself off the balcony, fly up and dissolve into nothing.
-hey. you. are you alright now?