23 Feb 2010

Alter egos

How dare you.
To think that a sound from your lips, a thought, a smile, a breath from your lungs
are anything but my possession, to act as though you’re free to do as you want, that is the true madness here.
Who gave you the idea you could just walk out when you felt like it. Tell me, they
will fall by my hand sooner than the moon travels the sky.
You are mine, you gave yourself up when you wanted a place in my heart, and I told you
there is no way out. I told you there is no turning back.
You had no right to disappear, since I didn’t issue it.
I am left with these decaying shadows of your nasty sides, and I never approved of them.
I accepted them holding hands with you, but now you are gone and they roam free in the
echoing corridors of my heart.
Where you’ve gone, where you’re happy, I have no sight of. No trace.
The question is who is the darker devil, you for doing it or me for placing you in a position
where you would be able to. For letting myself be convinced you wouldn’t, cause you couldn’t,
no you said you shouldn’t.
But you did, because everyone does. My problem is I said no I won’t have it, this emotional rape people put up with,
and now I’m there.
But it doesn’t matter, you wanted in, you are in. Now I want my deal of the bargain.
You have nothing on me because your lips and breath and eyes, they’re all still mine.
I own you, and I say come back or I will make them go away.


17 Feb 2010

16 Feb 2010


it seems like everyone is behind a glass wall now.
i watchhh.

9 Feb 2010

dreams until the sun is back i guess.

i woke up, and instead of going to school i got on a train.
i was in amsterdam. now i lived there and worked.
my co-workers were doing coke during working hours.
i struggled with where to put the empty soda cans.
then i went home to my apartment.
i was all alone and it was the best shit ever.







neil krug

1 Feb 2010

- timon, har du inte undrat över va det är för ljusprickar där uppe?
- pumba , jag undrar inte , jag vet. det är eldflugor. eldflugor som fastnat i det stora mörka där uppe.
- jösses.

so much hate for the ones we love.

we pretend we're having loads of fun in this world where we don't belong.

i cant think of anything better than sitting with a smoke
watching people watching me watching them being see-through.
and im made out of steel and if i break they all die.

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